tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13190166644363393452024-03-12T16:39:16.347+01:00"In the ocean see me swimming"Writing myself out of a depression...Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.comBlogger95125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-28779324852874543752023-01-01T16:10:00.001+01:002023-01-01T16:10:31.569+01:00Album - The Story Of Our TimesMike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-4107708713500847642013-02-28T17:19:00.003+01:002013-03-01T09:47:03.334+01:00Day-034-My time with the special forces
As a child I enjoyed playing war-games. Why this is so is another story. This is about how I ended up with the special forces and the things we did as 'force multipliers'. The term special forces is a description for people who when combined become from a strategic perspective capable of performing very complex mostly covert missions behind enemy lines.
We confuse the enemy, disruptMike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-29082552661300106072013-02-25T15:23:00.001+01:002013-02-25T17:17:22.982+01:00Day-033-"Friendliness the disease"
Within DIP Lite I was looking at the word 'friendly' and how I have lived this word. And it always amazes me how much opens up if I start to look at a single word and how multi dimensional words are. If you are interested in language the Desteni material will blow you out of your socks. It's possible to write about a single word into infinity because in a holographic way a word represents allMike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-61889291496126462352013-02-20T15:15:00.000+01:002020-10-27T01:40:13.992+01:00Day-032-"space chimp will work for food"
Sehr geehrte Herr Lammers,für Ihr Interesse an unserem Unternehmen und die Zusendung der Unterlagen möchten wir uns hiermit herzlich bedanken.Sicherlich können Sie sich vorstellen, dass sich eine Vielzahl von Interessenten für unsere Stelle beworben haben.
Die Entscheidung fiel uns nicht leicht, aber leider müssen wir Ihnen mitteilen, dass wir uns für einen anderen Mitbewerber Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-28231772476073860012013-02-19T20:40:00.000+01:002013-02-20T15:27:12.313+01:00Day-031-"hiding in the shed"
I want to change direction professionally and to do that I have to find a new way and expand on my existing area of expertise. I know about marketing, advertising, branding, photography and I have always 'loved' everything that involved bikes. More specifically mountain bikes. So if someone would ask me what I would love to do most proffesionally? It would be working in or around the bike Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-4567702052967323162012-12-03T14:17:00.001+01:002020-10-27T01:41:06.945+01:00Day-030-"Cheer the fuck up"
Within doing the DIP Lite I was looking at how I have lived the word 'cheerful' and what I observed was amongst others a close relationship between the word 'cheerful' and the word 'holiday'. As long as I can remember the biggest resistance in my life growing up was going to school. The thing I loved to do most was not going to school. Live without that 'responsibility'.
So from my Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-31756966754049315892012-11-24T12:57:00.001+01:002012-11-24T13:06:08.104+01:00Day-029-Another day stated
Frustration as the consequence of stress is when I allow stress and that leads to me being ineffective in whatever it is I am doing because it's not me that is in control. Instead my self sabotage is doing so within and as the stress I allow to become. It's my reactions to the backchat of self diminishment and failure.
Like in the moment where I have simply way too much on my Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-53826983462370840572012-11-20T16:27:00.001+01:002013-02-25T13:02:38.218+01:00Day-028-The stress of dying slowly
Today within DIP lite I had to work with the word stress and the fact is that I am stressed. My experience within my reality is one of stress where I find myself in a dog eat dog world ruled by lies and fear and fight for profit being one of the lucky fuckers with a roof over my head and a toilet to shit in.
I'm working in the field of advertising and marketing and at no point is it more Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-11121002001845650702012-11-19T01:12:00.000+01:002012-11-19T09:40:28.021+01:00Day-027-A Stew is born
"A determination not to change my attitude or position on something in spite of good arguments or reasons to do so"
Arguments mean that there is a polarity between different points of view. ANd on top of that it must be determined if the arguments are 'good'. Who is going to do that? The ones producing the arguments? It cannot be denied that before anything else this is about good and Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-91532419108360350072012-11-17T13:46:00.000+01:002012-11-18T22:25:05.349+01:00Day-026-my need for greed
From my present perspective I have started to live the word greed since the first time I wanted the bigger piece of a cookie when my mother would brake it in half. That first moment I heard myself say "but his part is bigger than mine". That's greed to me. Mine! Mining for satisfaction of self interest. Always and only at the cost of others. The opposite can be greed as well. Where I pityMike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-23817413950309027262012-11-15T15:43:00.003+01:002012-11-15T17:17:05.915+01:00Day-025-10.4 the 'copy cat' loop
This is a (coincidental) follow up to
Day-024-Getting rid of headaches
Reacting too generalizations
Sometimes I catch myself within a reaction saying something a long the line of: "that's cool we should all do that" or "we should all learn from that". And I noticed that I'm not the only one doing this. Everybody I know has this particular line of code in their vocabulary. So if Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-88398129128003540252012-11-10T21:40:00.000+01:002012-11-11T23:16:07.720+01:00Day-024-Getting rid of headaches
The spark of life faces death
The way I see myself behave in relation to feeling positive or negative and the way others perceive me within doing so. This is what popped up as I was reading a blog today. Also an image of a heavily mutulated man after an accident I saw on FB kept popping. I felt quite 'heavy' this week.
So i'm looking at myself and my behavior captured within a moment of Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-20060132857993830362012-10-28T22:56:00.000+01:002012-10-28T22:56:24.768+01:00Day-023-E-value ate the money
I was looking at some of my experiences over the past week. A week that was filled with ridiculous deadlines, stress, irritation, tiredness, confusion, suppression and lunacy. All because the money has to flow to a specific point more than to another. Its kind of mathematical and I'm not talking about the whole planet although exactly the same thing is happening on a macroeconomic scale Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-86433543510836510012012-10-16T22:07:00.000+02:002012-10-17T08:50:45.093+02:00Day-022-About the money
This is a follow up on:
Day-021-I don't need your opinion I need you to get my shit done!!!
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to relate everything in my reality to money
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become unstable because I fear loosing money
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let money determine my behavior, persona and base Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-42252503661173084962012-10-15T22:34:00.000+02:002012-10-16T16:29:51.221+02:00Day-021-I don't need your opinion I need you to get my shit done!!!
This is a follow up to:
Day-020-Fear of success
Opening up the point of self sabotage further. I want too have a look at a situation at work involving the way I work. How I experienced myself within the outflow and the work itself. To start of I realize that my work is the 'money point' and everything in my reality is related to that point.
I only have to look at myself and the people Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-91508841511141534802012-10-07T22:30:00.001+02:002012-10-07T22:51:04.200+02:00Day-020-Fear of success
This is a follow up to:
Day-018-Save me and then leave me alone
Yesterday I wrote amongst other things about an observation regarding self sabotage and that i'm actually addicted to sabotaging myself. What does that addiction look like and how does it manifest? What I see is that I feel safe as the victim that is dependent on others. This is creating a winning character as competitiveness Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-6390786706647524312012-10-06T21:26:00.000+02:002012-10-07T22:50:09.828+02:00Day-019-Save me and then leave me alone
Another month has expired. A period where I had to face myself as resistance. Being with myself and experiencing myself as a little child that does not wan't to move what-so-ever. I needed a kick in the ass. Or maybe a freight train. Anyway I want to thank a certain someone for the booty.
What is the main point here? What is it i'm looking at? First off I do not sit with myself and take the Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-38967255855037935262012-08-15T12:42:00.001+02:002012-09-30T13:39:37.322+02:00Day-018-Let's skip school and smoke pot!
Woke up this morning and before I had my eyes open there was this unrest within. My body felt heavy and not relaxed. My back was hurting and I had to start working on a project. It felt like being back in my schooldays with a party hangover.
I'm experiencing some of the aftereffects of sharing time with a friend intensively for over a week. I have to kind of set myself up again for workMike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-71861806809611831662012-08-14T16:15:00.002+02:002012-08-14T23:53:37.490+02:00Day-017-Is there something in it for me?
For the last few months I have been working freelance out of town a few kilometers instead of from home. This makes it a bit problematic for my dog who has to stay home alone. I could take her to work but it's far from Ideal because she would have to be outside on a leash all day. So my parents stepped in and said they where okay with having the dog over at their place during the day. Our Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-87562974596838016682012-08-13T12:08:00.000+02:002012-08-14T10:14:36.315+02:00Day-016-Highway exit strategy's and the 'My way' Character
I was driving as a passenger in a car. We where on the freeway driving up to my place. As we got to about 20 miles from where I live I saw a familiar exit sign. Now this particular exit is the one I would 'normally' use myself when driving home. So without reflecting or checking myself in relation to the moment and person I was with. I hear myself say; "we can exit the freeway here as well".Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-36595593102979937622012-07-29T14:33:00.001+02:002012-07-29T17:33:36.698+02:00Day-015-Branding a Jack in the box
This is a follow up to:
Day-014-Mad Mike as 'the adrenaline Junkie'
Day-013-My Adrenaline Junkie character
There is a scene in a movie called 'Tropic Thunder' where actor Robert Downey Jr. plays an actor playing an actor with a blown ego that says "I don't read the script, the script reads me". That says it all. Eventually my ego becomes so big it will become the script. I become the Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-75915085977546727922012-07-20T12:38:00.002+02:002012-07-21T22:10:04.989+02:00Day-014-Mad Mike as 'the adrenaline Junkie'
This is a follow up to:
Day-013-My Adrenaline Junkie character
In my last post I wrote about myself as the adrenaline Junkie. Within that I stated that the adrenaline junkie character gave me the experience of success. An experience I was not able to perceive as myself as such socially. Meaning in school, relationships, etc. What is my definition of success within and as this character of Mike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-12344841982513831132012-07-12T23:25:00.001+02:002012-07-13T11:09:39.174+02:00Day-013-My Adrenaline Junkie character
I was having a conversation with someone and he said he observed periods in my life where I would only talk about biking. Whatever the conversation was about I would somehow bend it and bring it back to biking. Within this I see that I have always allowed myself to become completely possessed within hobbies or sports. Who am I as this competitive and fanatical character? How did I build thatMike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-29799748150607277402012-07-03T07:59:00.000+02:002012-07-03T18:44:40.561+02:00Day-012-I do perceive here a divided duty. Othello. ACT I Scene 3
The moment I finish my coffee I see the character that is my private self take a deep breath and leave the house to enter the world stage. Often that deep breath is my private character (the one I'm most comfortable with) realizing it has a few hours ahead to play as another character. And so my days are filled with acting out scripts that my mind as the director presents me with. I realizeMike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1319016664436339345.post-36765512764957192612012-06-14T23:44:00.002+02:002012-06-15T08:18:31.068+02:00Day-011-The phonetic mantra of bohemian rhapsody's
Who am I within the word fanatic?
Someone made a 'joke' regarding me reciting mantra's phonetically because I was to lazy to learn them. Calling them cellphone calls for quick ascension lol. Indeed my quick ascension never took place. So I probably prevented myself from some sort of (brain)damage by not reciting myself into eternal bliss which is quite a joke in itself.
I have been on a fewMike Lammershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08993196972171856961noreply@blogger.com0